Finishing Well Together

I’ve been blogging for the better part of a decade. And I’ve had more blogs than I can count. I own a domain name, and I’ve had blog fame. But nothing has ever excited me more in my blogging “career” as much as this little blog has. This is a clean slate, a fresh start and the answer to a prayer I’ve had for years. True transparency. True love. True commitment. That’s what this is.
Big T and I have been married for 10 years but only in the last two weeks have we REALLY known each other. Oh how I wish I could put into words the transformation that has happened in our relationship in the last two weeks, but I just can’t. I can’t hardly articulate the elation, joy and pure awe I feel at the redeeming and transforming power of a marriage that puts Christ in the center.
If I think too hard on the fact that we spent 10 years not knowing each other, I get sad. I start to think of the what-if’s and I let the enemy start to play mind games with me on how I should have, could have and would have if I’d known then what I know now. That just robs me of the joy I have in this moment.
Because in this moment I know my husband deeper than I’ve ever known him, and he knows me in a more intimate way than I’ve ever thought possible. He’s seen my ugly and chosen to love me (not it-we hate the ugly) anyway. I am so thankful. And I know that only with Christ is what we’ve been through possible to come out on the other end THANKFUL.
Recently I reread Romans 8:28, I used to read that as all things are good. But that’s not what it says. All things are not good. In fact, some things down right suck hard. But God will work all things FOR my good and His glory. So even the suckiest of situations can be worked out by God for my good, and that just makes me want to dance. Big T and I have stopped looking at the sucky situations as big things, and put them in an eternal perspective. In light of eternity, the last 10 years is a blip. We have the rest of our lives to enjoy knowing each other and for eternity after we will be with Jesus together. That delights me. I am so thankful. (I think I’ve said that a few times. Because I can’t come up with anything other than praise for what’s gone on in my home.)
I really have no idea what this blog will be or become. I have my ideas but I know that God delights in taking my little requests and blowing them out of the water.
Has your marriage been beaten down beyond repair? Did you think that there was no hope of ever being in love with your spouse again? Had you resigned yourself of living together because it was “good for the kids?” You are in good company. That was us. WAS. Not anymore friends. Not anymore. The enemy wants to destroy your marriage, and he will try EVERYTHING to do it. Being eternally minded has shaped our hearts and minds in a big way. We no longer see this marriage as something for us to be happy, but more of something to show the power of Christ. If we are eternally minded we see that the battle is never against each other, it is us against the enemy. I’ll tell you a little secret. Tom and Jenn Grimm are weak, but our God is strong, and as a team we win. We are going to run this race of life, finishing well together.